Supporting Foster Youth at CSULB

Guardian Scholars (GS) is a program on campus that supports current and former foster youth at CSULB. If you have been in the foster care system, find out how you can become a Guardian Scholars member!

What I Wish I Did Before Graduating

After being in college for over 5 years, I can’t help but regret the things I didn’t get to explore and experience. Here are my biggest regrets.

How to conquer your fears

How to conquer your fears in the most logical way possible without the hassle of a thousand dollar registration fee

Better Than A Band-Aid

I have been hurt, and I fear I will get hurt again. So why haven’t I found help? This is a story about therapy, and why I haven’t gotten any yet.

Illustration by Arielle Zepeda
Illustration by Arielle Zepeda

Holiday Facade of Gifting

By Arielle Zepeda

Boxes assorted in different proportions
Underneath the fallen needles of the dying pine
… they’re all mine

I am not ungrateful for this pampering
I wish the bottom of the tree appeared bare
An empty tree gifts paradise
Were these gifts approached with care?

I don’t know where to stare.

Gifting occasionally feels nice
With it’s wrongful acquisition and pitiful charity
Accepting comes with a price
My love language is sincerity.

Sit here with me and show me you can feel
I beg of you
Allow the warmth to pulsate through our veins
Plague me with your hidden humanity

Thump thump - thump thump

That noise — disturbed unfamiliarity
Vibrations of tenderness I used to know
Comfortably uncomfortable
Discomfort knows how to soothe this soul.

Awkward is who I can display
Yet, there is more I am willing to share
Give ourselves this opportunity to be authentic
I won’t let this blow air

Please, set the materialized items aside
And come smile with me on this wonderful night.